Wednesday, November 13, 2013

just popped in my head

When I spend a summer in Brazil I met a musician who spoke near perfect English. In the village we were living virtually no one spoke English.  During our conversation he told us he taught himself how to speak English by emulating English language pop songs. Amazing eh! I guess we can do almost anything if we want it hard enough.

Friday, June 14, 2013

This or that

I can never seem to get it all done:

If I work hard at cleaning my house on the weekend, I don't have time to do meal planning and prep cooking for the coming week.

If I work out in the evening I forget to plan for the next days supper.

Heck, if I am tired in the evening (right! right!?) I forget to plan for the next days supper. 

If I remember to put a load of laundry in the washer in the evening, I am asleep before it is ready to go in the dryer. (I have been known to text my DH from bed asking him to please put load in dryer, crossing my fingers he checks his phone before bed).

If I do a bunch of meal planning and prepping on the weekend I don't get much housework done.

God help us is we decide to ignore all meal planning and cleaning and just hang with our kids all weekend long.

At the moment I don't have a to do list, mostly because I am in denial. I'm not the only one right?

Thursday, June 13, 2013

A side project

This week I starting contributing to the blog Losing It in Ottawa. I was finding it hard to write about fitness here on my blog, I wasn't sure it fit well. I could go on and on about fitness and my successes and (so far mostly) failures, and I think the Losing it blog is a better venue for that type of conversation. Please come visit me there if you wish, and join the conversation. There are some pretty amazing women writing about their diverse experiences. Interesting stuff.

Friday, March 15, 2013

where I am today

It has been a few months of huge highs and low lows. I know what the problem is and very little will change until I can address it. I started reading a book called "Fire Starter Sessions" by Danielle Laporte. I have to admit that I haven't finished it yet. It was an ebook I borrowed from the library and very quickly it became apparent to me that I needed a paper version so I could scribble notes and do the tutorials. I must get my hands on that book. It is a guide to making it happen. Make what you want, become a reality. Make what I want for my life my reality. I think my lows are often when I feel like I can't wait anymore, I am growing more and more impatient with my current life. And the reality that making a change isn't as far away as it used to be, that makes me impatient. And I get frustrated and have pity parties and temper tantrums. Oh ya, fun to be around, that's me.

The exercising I have been doing has been helping level off my moods. It amazes me how powerful activity can be. It's effects on my mood are strong enough and so clearly noticeable that I am able to fairly easily force myself out of bed at 5:15am to work out twice a week. The alternative, an extra hours sleep but feeling down, isn't really a viable alternative anymore. And the rest of the week I try to do work outs over lunch hour. I don't always get to them but the endorphin effect from one high intensity work out usually lasts a few days so as long as I get to the gym (or work out at home) every two days I am good. The fact that I haven't lost any weight has been a bit of an annoyance to me. I even let it get me down last week and stop me from working out. Wallowing in my own self pity, see, fun me again. Poor Kevin. Yesterday I read a post that reminded me what is important. I always say my main goal is to be healthy (and it is) but in the back of my mind getting skinny is always there. Sorry to add a second link in one post but this article is worth the read. If you are a fit woman who struggles with body image, you NEED to read this. Thank you EliteFTS and Alexander Cortes for this post. It is the truth, a truth that not only women but society in general needs to embrace "A Lion in Iron: Women- Be More Not Less". I am strong, much stronger than I was 1 year ago. And I will continue to get stronger. Healthy and strong are my goals. I needed that reminder.


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