reboot in safe mode

You all own computers. You know how they work. You have this wonderful operating system. It lets you run multiple applications as once. Your working away on one, uploading data on another. Downloading info for later on a third. A few more apps open for good measure. The system handles it all beautifully. Keeps track of it all without a hiccup.

Then you get this new peripheral. You plug it in. At first everything seems fine. The system is interacting with the new hardware perfectly. But slowly, in the background, things start to slow down. You can't seem to run all your apps at the same time. The download you desperately need is taking too long. Soon it won't download at all and you can only run one app successfully. You reboot and it helps a bit, but quickly things slow down again. You need a full system shut down, but who has time for a full system shutdown, you have things to do!

At the end of the day when things are at their worst, you shutdown. In the morning things look good. You boot up without a problem and are able to start up everything you want. But by lunch you begin the downward spiral. The peripheral is using up all your random access memory and you don't know what to do to stop it. You love this new peripheral so unplugging is out of the question. You just do your best to get through the day till you can do a full shutdown and start over. You just hope that the peripheral only hogs your RAM and doesn't try and grab any memory from your hard drive. You have long term storage on there and you plan on using it again some day, when your memory manager comes back online.

Sound familiar... This computer is my brain. And the beloved peripheral is my darling baby. In the last few weeks I have completely lost the ability to multitask. I couldn't plan my way out of a paper bag. I need to start writing everything down. I mean everything, like - BRUSH YOUR TEETH before you leave for work! I need to change the way I do things. I was one of these people who bounced from one task to the next without problem. Now I find myself sitting at my desk wondering what exactly I had been doing just moments before. Distractions are many in my job. They are part of the job (the part I usually loved). Now people come to see me and I have to listen hard and focus hard to remember exactly what they are talking about. This is probably a good thing. I will have already started to find a new way of managing my life in time for this 3rd child to enter my world and throw everything into chaos...

Strangely, I am so looking forward to the chaos.