days to go

The little widget I added says I have 209 days to go. Good God that seems like forever. I know it will fly by, but at this moment, FOREVER!

I have so much I want to do, need to do, it is crazay. But this weekend I am taking it easy. I started to make Amy's Roasted Red Pepper soup. And by started I mean, I roasted the red peppers and garlic and then all of a sudden it was 8pm and time for the kids to go to bed and I got upset that I was sooooooo tired and I still had to finish this soup. Kevin intervened by assuring me that I could refrigerate the roasted veggies and finish it tonight. WHY DIDN'T I THINK OF THAT instead of dissolving into tears stressing out over it. Tonight it is.

I will be planting my vegetable garden no matter what the weather. Even if I have to wear full rain gear. I am determined to get these veggies into the ground. I planted my herbs and tomatoes last weekend (herbs in a window box and tomatoes in a sunnier spot in my yard). Kevin built me a new raised bed where our shed used to be. It is 3/4's full of soil, I need to dump my compost into it, mix it up, and then plant the cucumbers, beans, carrots, lettuce, kohlrabi and what ever else tickles me fancy. Oh and we are building a potato box to grow our own potatoes. I picked up two bags of heritage sprouting spuds last weekend. Those also need to get planted pronto, since they won't be harvest ready till late fall.

All this has to happen Saturday/early Sunday since we are going on a little road trip on Sunday to visit my mom. The house could use a clean, but there are only so many hours in the day. House, i apologies, you will be neglected this weekend. Hope you all have a nice weekend!

Just the beginning

It is still early days. I am only 10 weeks along. I haven't had an ultrasound as of yet but there is a bit of wrangling going on in regards to my due date. My cycle was not terribly reliable but general consensus is that this baby will be making an appearance right in time for Christmas. Which freaks me the heck out. A Christmas baby. Dear God. I think this is divine pay back for me complaining about M's birthday overshadowing my birthday. Now I have to spend the rest of my life trying to make sure my child feels he/she is getting enough attention in the shadow of GODS BIRTHDAY. Oh my.

Overall I have been felling good. Really tired, but good. Initially I had no morning sickness and then two weeks ago I started to feel nauseous. I really wish that would pass already. Soon I hope. The only thing that makes me feel better is eating and I really need to lay off the eating. Pepper corn and olive oil triscuts are my fav at the moment. I could eat a whole box. I don't, but I could. And I have to admit to being really moody. I always find the first trimester of pregnancy stressful. I worry if everything is going okay in there. The baby is too small to check in yet, can't hear the heartbeat, no belly to show progress. I know in a few weeks, after the ultrasound I will feel better.

I wasn't posting cause I just wanted to tell you all and I couldn't think of anything else to write about. So I should be back to posting. Thanks for all the well wishes. They made me feel really loved!

The next chapter

update

Being that I had just returned from my conference in Orlando, my weekend was basically a write off. I was so exhausted I did virtually nothing. I went to my sisters house for a Mothers Day lunch where I sat on the couch partially comatose and contributed non-sense to the conversations. I really need this coming weekend to catch up. I am glad that it is a long one. And even though I would love warm weather, if it is cold and rainy it just might give me an excuse to sit around and nap. I can't complain about that.

I will talk about Disney soon. It was a great trip and I enjoyed it tremendously. Especially watching the boys discover it. Seeing it through their eyes was wonderful.

On Tuesday, while at my conference, I developed a cold. I had chills and aches and runny nose and sneezing. I was so scared that I would end up with a fever and immigration wouldn't let me fly home. I was sure it was nothing major but I worried anyhow. Thankfully any fever I may have had (I had no thermometer to check it) passed by Thursday. Even though I am still blowing my nose all the time, I had no trouble getting on the plane and coming home. Phew! I am so glad to be back. At home... At work, that's another story.

Enjoy the silence

I am sitting in a hotel in Orlando. It is a very nice hotel, one I would never afford if I had to pay the bill. It is beautiful, comfortable and well, lonely. I am all alone. It is very strange. I don't know what to do with myself. I know you all think I am nuts, your at home surrounded by kids want to kill me right now. "Whats your problem woman! Take a bath, go shopping, swim in the pool!" I think the reason I feel so alone is that I have just come off the most amazing holiday with my family. The kids loved Disney. We all enjoyed it so much. It was so amazing to experience Disney through the eyes of my kids. I didn't know that I had a dare devil for a 4 year old, he loved the roller coasters and scary rides. The kids were so well behaved, we barely had to raise our voices. D is such a trouper. Since our trip was so short we were at the parks for 4 days straight and he walked, and walked, and walked and never once complained. So here I sit, alone at the hotel, surrounded by quiet. All alone. It will be a very long time before I get this much time to myself again, so I should really just sit back and enjoy the silence shouldn't I.