A few weeks ago I was reading a post on Brene Brown's blog and she wrote a post about Chris Guillebeau and his new book "The $100 startup". Very spur of the moment I clicked on the Amazon link and bought the book. Without even thinking, I just did it. And of course through the awesomeness of Amazon it was on my desk 2 days later. That night before bed I read the first two chapters and my mind was spinning. So many ideas, so much inspiration. After putting it down I couldn't even sleep. The idea that I could be my own boss, work for myself. Do something I love. It has been something I have dreamed about for years but never dared consider. I always thought that I would have to wait till we had
But did you read that paragraph closely. If you did you will notice that I only read the first two chapters. In true ME fashion I am spooked. There is light at the end of this dark tunnel and instead of facing it head on I am averting my eyes. I am scared. I look at the book (now sitting in my living room) and my heart races. I want to pick it up. I want to keep reading it. I NEED to keep reading it.
With that being said, even with just these first two chapters read I have come up with an idea. And I have given myself a deadline. I have to start working on it in the next two weeks.
MY idea. OMG you have no idea how difficult this is for me to type. What if you all think I am crazy, the idea won't work. I'll never make a living. Why would anyone ever buy what I am selling. ~breath~ I am just going to put it out there. Be honest, tell me what you think. I can take it.
I want to bake. To start I want to bake healthy snacks, muffins, cookies and the like. Sell them to parents who want healthy snack food for their kids lunches but don't have the time to prepare them themselves. The parents who like me cringe every time they drop $3 on a box of Bear Paw cookies or store bought granola bars. And by healthy I mean banana chocolate chip muffins with cauliflower in them. Granola bars with spinach. But they will taste good, the kids will eat them. Happily eat them. Sneak the good stuff in there. I already have ideas for other products but I need to start working on recipes. I need to slow down with the ideas and just start baking. My soccer league ends in two weeks and my deadline is that I will create a sample box for each of my teammates. So they can sample, give me feedback and hopefully a few will become/refer customers.
Phew, now it is out there. I am in tears, scared to death. It isn't that I am afraid to start. I am afraid of what this could become. Could this actually be the thing that delivers me into a life where I love what I do. I want this so bad. That is why I am so afraid.